Thursday, October 11, 2007

Stolen from Mental Nurse

Your Score: Commander - ESTP

60% Extraversion, 40% Intuition, 73% Thinking, 46% Judging

It's all about action with you, isn't it? You're outgoing and right to the point. Fast moving, fast talking and often fast spending. Your motto is "Just DO it."

Wow. You move faster than the Flash on a treadmill. (Yes. I could have thought up something cleverer than that. But honestly, you're just not worth my time.)

To carry on the superhero theme, you're comparable to the Hulk. Except you're uglier. And you're slightly more intimidating. People flinch when you're around for fear you might exert your dominance and order them to do 50 press-ups.

Perhaps if you calmed down a little, people wouldn't be so scared of you. Of course, something would have to be done about your face. Is plastic surgery an option?

This insatiable appetite for action means that you're not exactly into long term commitments. You get bored incredibly quickly and tend to jump in and out of relationships like the Energiser Bunny.

Eventually you're going to run out of people to bounce to, and you will end up a very lonely and hated individual.


If you want to learn more about your personality type in a slightly less negative way, check out this.


The other personality types are as follows...

Loner - Introverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
Pushover - Introverted Sensing Feeling Judging
Criminal - Introverted Sensing Thinking Perceiving
Borefest - Introverted Sensing Thinking Judging
Almost Perfect - Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
Freak - Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging
Loser - Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving
Crackpot - Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging
Clown - Extraverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
Sap - Extraverted Sensing Feeling Judging
Do Gooder - Extraverted Sensing Thinking Judging
Scumbag - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
Busybody - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging
Prick - Extraverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving
Dictator - Extraverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging

Link: The Brutally Honest Personality Test written by UltimateMaster on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Saturday, October 06, 2007

Off work on the sick

I have been off work sick for just over a week now. The ugly, black monster that is depression, self-harm, suicidal thoughts and general don't care lethargy has washed over me again. It's a shame really because I was rather being to enjoy my new job at the new hospital.

Work have been great about it though. They've been really understanding and my consultant has told me not to come back until I feel ready to work, not when I think I should come back. I still feel guilty though, I should be out there helping people, not wallowing in my own self-pity like some emo-esque teenager.

My new GP is an absolute love too. I am back on the anti-depressants, back on the mood stabiliser, back on the sleeping tablets, back on all the tablets I stopped taking many years ago in the great belief that I was absolutely fine and didn't need pharmacological intervention. Now I am wishing that pharmacology worked faster on the body.

I am holed up in my little room, crying, listening to maudling music and planning ways to escape my life for a few hours. I wouldn't say I was actively suicidal, not like sometimes, but I am thinking about it strongly. It's a thought that is always in my head and pops up at the most inconvenient of times. I have been cutting myself again, quite badly, and it's only because I am an A&E doctor that I haven't had to get treatment for it.

My GP is worried about me, my parents are worried about me, work is worried about me. In fact the only person who doesn't seem to be worried about me, is me, and that's only because I haven't got the energy to think anymore.