Thursday, May 03, 2007

I am not dead...

But I can't honestly say that I feel alive.

MMC and MTAS still stink, the fiance is back from Iraq and is looking forward to working in Birmingham without any consideration for the fact that if I get a job I won't be anywhere near Birmingham, I am trying to calm myself down over the one interview I have and am trying to resist the urge to run away and quit this profession. Oh, and I'm trying to stop bursting into tears on ward rounds or when in ICU or Theatre, I wish I was back in A&E but then I don't, then I sometimes wish I wasn't anywhere.

So if you were wondering where the posts had gone it's because frankly I can't see the point in posting, I can't see the good or positive side to medicine anymore and I don't want to bore people with my pathetic whinging, but thanks for the concern about my lack of posts, that means a lot to me, it really does.

6 comments:

Kim said...

Good to hear your still alive, sorry things arent great.

Cal said...

Oh, this is so shit. MTAS/MMC has screwed so many people over, and I truly am so sorry...

All I can say is that I really hope that things do improve for you. I really hope that they do - it sounds like you're going through a lot at the moment, especially with your fiance's situation thrown into the mix.

I really do wish you all the best of luck, and I'm thinking of you.

Cal said...

Please post soon. I know that I'm whining at you. But pleeeeeeeeeeeeease.......?

Monster Mom said...

wow.. that bad huh! anyway, hi there...

Future Doc said...

Please come back!!! Please!!!

I love your style!!! Please post!

bed wetting alarm said...

the most pleasing news is that you are still alive but i am really upset on hearing about you and hope that will be back to posting and i hope that things will improve for you.